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Tuesday, April 06, 2010

bittersweet spring





23 years ago, on David's 8th birthday, he lost a 6 month old baby brother to SIDS. 


7 years ago, on March 18th, he lost a brother to suicide. 


The taste is bitter. 


But there is comfort is in knowing what Easter is all about.
 Resurrection.
 New life. 
That someday David will be able to greet his brothers once more..and rush into their open arms. 
The taste will be sweet.
This life is but a brief moment..

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Yup, we're still here..


Dear Tanner,
         Thank you for asking where we have been. No, we didn't fall off the face of the earth, but I'm wondering, is that possible? Because I could use a vacation! Ever since I came home from my trip to the photography convention in Vegas, I have felt so overwhelmed. I was given mounds of information that if used properly, and with enough creative cleverness, could really get my business flying. I have so many ideas racing around in this head of mine, and although I have written it down, I still feel overwhelmed, and to say the least, like beating my head into a brick wall. I write everything down. I make lists(Yes, I'm aware I need professional help) I have a list of bills that are overdue, a list of things I need to do at home, a list of things that I need to do for the business, a list of things I WANT to do for the business, a list of pictures I need to edit, a HUGE grocery list, I even have a list of lists I need to make!!! Do you think one can have too many lists, I mean, could that be possible? HMM.. I like the way Dave does things. So simple, no lists, no worries..just fa la la la la we'll cross that bridge when we come to it, all the time in the world sort of thinking. Maybe that works for him(and I assure you most days it doesn't) but I cannot and will not function that way. MUST...HAVE...ORDER!!
 Here is my desk. Can you see them? The lists? They are everywhere. Oh, and my Mom told me that if I dont fill out the Census papers that they will come arrest me, so there you see it, all ready to go on my desk. Mom, were you being serious, can they do that??  {sidenote: if anyone would like to make me some cute curtains for my office window, go right ahead. My sheets will thank you. Plus, you will be blessed ;) }
    Anyways, aside from all the crying I've done today(sorry Dave, your shoulder should dry off in an hour or two assuming the emotional floodgates stay closed for the day) we are doing really well! We are happy and having fun and looking forward. We are going camping next weekend to good old Blue Lake Nevada, you know the one, bluegills and bass remember?? Yeah, It's been a long time but my parents are going and a bunch of my siblings are too!! Yay for long lost togetherness at last!! You better guarantee that I will be disappearing into the marshes with my fishing pole for an hour or two the minute we arrive! I am so excited and when I get back, I will put it right there on the bottom of my "things to blog about" list. ;)

                      Also, the time has come to start the garden! I am so flipping excited about gardening. It is such a weird and unusual emotion to be feeling about vegetables, for me especially, but I have found that I actually really love it!! Don't knock it till you try it! Yesterday we tilled the beds and planted the early stuff, carrots, peas, and lettuce. We won't be planting anything else until May but the tomatoes are started in the kitchen window!
 Isn't he the cutest tiller ever?? 
I made these plant markers in all my cleverness. LOL The boys are so excited and love being able to visualize what will be growing where. And they'll be good in case I forget where I planted stuff. (I can totally see me doing that)

Speaking of plants, remember the grass we planted in the window? 
That's how long it's been since I've blogged!! Go ahead, take away my gold stars! Rip them off quick, like a bandaid!

Dave has so many projects started right now. He is re-building a flatbed trailer, re-finishing our kitchen table, and building a new deck onto the back of the house. So, don't walk out our back door. You will fall. 
This was last week when it was snowing(obviously) and there, in the background you can see a before picture of the garden. Euw!
So, this deck he's making is actually someone else's old deck that his brother gave him. Our deck was about to fall off the back of the house and it was really rickety. The new one is really big(YAY we can have a table on it and a barbeque grill!! Party at our house!) One man's trash, another man's treasure!
Ok speaking of Decks
 (SQUIRREL!!!)
I was walking under the one that is currently under construction yesterday, and I had my sunglasses on and I was looking down and I totally hit my head HARD. I hit it so hard that it pushed my glasses into the bridge of my nose and they had to be surgically removed! LOL just kidding, but I was bleeding and they were smashed and it hurt really freaking bad. End of tangent. End of post. I feel better.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

"Kids, you tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is, never try."

I don't really know what to say about this. Dave made this Simpson's family out of Legos this morning. Wow. I have to admit I'm impressed.  We're huge Simpson's buffs, if you didn't already know that. 

Sunday, February 21, 2010

So glad when Daddy comes home..

Daddy brought home legos this morning from his work trip to Nevada.
We sat in the warmth of the early morning sunshine as it filtered in through our window...building legos.




Daddy is just a big kid. I am always telling him he reminds me of a 10 year old boy, and then I am corrected-"More like 14.." he tells me. My valentines gift to him was that '69 Camaro Micro Machine you see him playing with below. It was my way of "ok"ing his dream to collect Micro Machines as a hobby, and getting it started for him. 

Ashton puts his own underwear on now, can you tell? 
I put this one together. Yeah, I'm pretty much the coolest Mom ever. ;)

Friday, February 19, 2010

Spring Fever

 We want spring to come! 
We played outside today and we saw grass peeking through all that slushy gray snow. 
Spring isn't coming fast enough so we planted our own grass. We are excited to see it grow!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Growing up too fast

I figured it's been way too long since I did an actual shoot of the boys with their clothes on haha) so we set up the studio today and had some fun. My boys are so gorgeous, and they are growing up before my eyes. *tear

These pictures are also posted on my new photography blog HERE. Make sure to follow the new blog!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Morning

I love the sweet smell of dawn -

our unique daily opportunity to smell time,
to smell opportunity -
each morning being, a new beginning.
~Emme Woodhull-Bäche

















Sunday, February 14, 2010

"Valentimes" Day

This was the best Valentine's Day in 6 years. What a lucky girl I am to be loved by this man.

All day yesterday I was finding little notes from Dave all over the house that said all the little things he loves about me.






 Then I found a pair of earrings he made for me hidden in my makeup bag. I thought he wasn't listening when I was raving about vintage sparrows. He was.



 He surprised me today with a desk he's been refinishing for me. I just about passed out. Don't get me wrong, Dave is a sweetheart, he shows me his love by being there for me and supporting me, but he's not much of a gift giver or letter writer. In our 6 1/2 years of marriage I have gotten one card from him and roses once. And that was when we were dating. So, needless to say, it meant so much to me that he took the time to write out his feelings for me and put so much time and thought(and secrecy) into gifts for me. I never expect gifts, but I love cards and letters. Especially from David. He hates writing!

We made sugar cookies to pass out to friends around Logan. The boys somewhat helped(if you can count stealing the scraps to make hills to drive their Lego trucks on) but I'm not posting the pictures because I don't want to gross anyone out who ate those cookies. HAHA only teasing!


I hope everyone's Valentines Day was as full as mine was. xoxo